When I was a little girl, Labor Day meant watching Jerry Lewis, waiting to hear our names called out on the telethon for our donation. It meant fried chicken and deviled eggs and buttermilk ice cream at my cousins’ house. Later it became the day that my cousin and I got to appear on the local telethon to turn in the money we’d made at our annual backyard carnival. Always it was the last real day of summer before the first full day of school.
Well, Jerry Lewis and his telethon are a thing of the past. School started almost a month ago. Some years we get together and eat burgers with the family on Labor Day; more often than not we take advantage of a Monday off to engage in actual LABOR–John and I will probably conduct a file review today.
What Labor Day will always be for me now, I imagine, is an anniversary. Because on a Labor Day evening, five years ago, while we were thankfully absent from home, this happened:
Every year in advance of this day I think about it, and contemplate writing some kind of profound post. This year was no different, especially since it’s five years–kind of a significant anniversary–and September 5 and Labor Day once again coincide.
But despite thinking about it a few days ago and starting to plan out in my head what I would say, it took looking at my Facebook memories this morning (at a post I penned on the one-year anniversary) to remind me to sit down and write this today.
I just mentioned the anniversary to William and asked him what he thought about it and he said it doesn’t really matter to him anymore, that it was a long time ago and he didn’t lose anything important.
The events do have a certain remoteness, and I find myself looking back on them as though I were watching a documentary about something that happened to someone else. It still seems so incredible that it happened at all.
I find myself paraphrasing Ronald Reagan and asking myself, “Are you better off now than you were five years ago?” The answer is an unqualified YES, even after all the losses. The fact is that we were miserable in that house, that it was an exceptionally difficult time in our lives for a variety of reasons. I don’t know what would have happened if the house had NOT burned down–obviously, the passage of five years would have brought changes although they would not have been the same changes–but it’s fairly certain at least that we would not have been living here, and living here has shaped our lives in interesting ways.
I’ve written before about the love and community we experienced and what a gift that was (and I remain wracked with guilt over my failure to finish all the thank you notes). Does all the above mean that the fire was a blessing and part of God’s plan for our family?
Well, I don’t believe that. Nor do I expect I will ever really “get over” it. But I am grateful that our passage through the fire landed us where we are.
Wow. What a story. I am so glad you have come out the other side.
Thanks, Anna. Me too!